Bank holiday weekend 🦋

To the weekend I’ve been dreading, 

 So thank god it’s Friday, a long weekend off .. 

For me their not my thoughts, two years ago my life changed forever. Where has the time gone, makes you realise how precious life is. 

As most of you are aware on the 2nd of may I lost my brother to mental health and as each day goes by it’s just got harder, I’ve just learnt how to deal with his parting. 

However this weekend for me and my family will be a reminder of what happened two years ago the day our hearts broke. 

This weekend I want to remember him for all his funny moments and the precious times we shared. I always say now, ‘take so many photos that your albums are full’ because you just don’t know when the last time is with a special someone. So we have the memories to hold on to and thank god I am camera happy lol 😂.

I have the most funny memories with my brother, and my most favourite memories were made with him

Memories will last a life time, so even though it’s such a sad time try and focus on the good.

And forever ever I will say this never feel alone, always talk about how you feel I know it can be hard but people want to help no one wants any one to suffer in silence.

Enjoy the bank holiday weekend 💋


Just a little thank you 

So it is only recently I have started this blog, to help myself and others.

I just want to say thank you really for all your kind messages and I’m glad it has helped you following my journey.

It’s nice to know your not alone, as going through grief or any illness can feel so isolating but having support around you even if it is some one just asking if your okay means the world.

It makes me feel so happy that this blog is helping others in different ways and i hope you will continue to follow my journey.
So thank you and remember your never alone

N x

Coming to an end 🦋

So uni is approaching the end with one more assignment to finish and all I can think about is next week. 

Grief is such a horrible feeling it never goes away and although you try and push it to the back of your mind it hits you like a ton of bricks.

All I keep thinking is where have these two years gone, is life really going that fast.

So much has changed, people I was super close to seem like strangers and those who I’ve known for two minutes have been such amazing friends .. or is it just me is this horrible thing called grief just taking over my emotions and making me be and feel something I don’t want to.

All I know is those who have dealt with grief are strong beautiful people, because I must say it is one of the worst feelings in the world knowing that you won’t ever be able to say hello to that person again or just give them a hug. 

For every one going through this motion or only just starting to, I won’t say it gets easier I just think you learn how to deal with it but what I do know is your super strong 💪 

N x

The day some people dread – Monday 🙈

Treat today like any other day, turn them negative thoughts into positive. 

I’m trying to keep positive, it’s a week tomorrow that I lost my brother and these two years have gone so quickly, it only feels like yesterday it happened. 

I’ve got so much to do finishing off my last assignment and working. Sometimes all of this can stress me out with knowing what day is approaching but I try stay positive and know that soon I will graduate and uni life would all be worth it in the end.

Grief is such a weird feeling, as those who have experienced it can understand when I say you go through so many emotions. Even two years later I’m still coming to terms with what happened, and as the days go past I still find it so difficult, but for me I try and reach different milestones so I can focus my thoughts on that. 

I would hate any one to go through what I have and lose some one so close to them to mental health as it is such a horrible feeling to go through not knowing why they done what they done. Us as a community can knock down this stigma so that individuals know there not alone and can talk about it, I for one will listen and would love to hear your story’s.

Have a great Monday and remember stay positive and if your feeling low talk to someone 🦋 

Today is your day 

Believe in yourself, I know sometimes you can wake up and feel like everything seems to be going wrong … try and turn them negative thoughts into positive ones. Try and focus on yourself and what you want to achieve. 

I know sometimes it’s easier said than done, I’m sure we have all been there. Up coming to the 2nd anniversary of my brother it’s hard to sometimes stay positive as inside you are slowly dying, but you know we are still here and we need to make the most of that one life we live. Keep your mind occupied into something, even if it’s exercise, cooking or playing with your little ones the more your mind is occupied the little you will feel the upset you are feeling, remember your not alone there are millions out there who feel this way – and one main thing to remember is that it’s okay to talk, we need to knock down this stigma to mental health.

Have a lovely weekend, where ever you may be 🦋
Hold your head high, smile and tell yourself today is your day. 

Coming up to two years… 

On may the 2nd it will be two years since I lost my brother, possibly the hardest two years of my life …. people used to say it will get easier. I never believed them and still don’t although I’ve learnt to live with it now and build a life a different way. It will never be easy losing some one, so don’t ever listen to those who think they know as every one will go through grief differently. 

Set your mind to something, it helps turn negative events into something positive … this time last year I was practicing for my 10k run 🏃 this was hard for me as I’m. It a runner but if you set your mind to something you can achieve it never let any one tell you different. 

On may 30th me and a friend raised over £1000 to go to mind, to help those who suffer with mental health problems. This year I am starting to share my journey with you. Hope you have a nice day and remember smile 🦋


Your not alone ….

Welcome to my blog Just something magical, this name was founded from my brother who I sadly lost in 2015. Taking his initials to turn a sad event into something that we can remember him by. I hope you will enjoy this journey with me… I am new to this …. and I cant wait to share my memories and journey with you.